Over a year ago, I gave this blogging thing a try. I blogged for about a month and a half and it was fine – but something was off about it. The truth is, I’ve wanted to start a blog for a while. I love to write and have loved it since I was in middle school. I loved it so much that growing up, I would write short stories, I wrote and helped managed my high school newspaper and eventually went on to write and be an editor of my high school newspaper. I’ve always kept a journal with my own thoughts and feelings but somewhere along the way, I stopped.
I think adulthood got in the way and then I began to feel insecure about my writing – “I’m not a strong enough writer. I have nothing to say. My feelings are too private to share. Everyone is going to judge my writing and my thoughts.” The usual doubts and fears. But as I continued growing up and began to go through tough times (which you will learn all about in posts to come), I started finding my voice again and that need to write slowly began to intensify within me.
I wanted to share my story, I wanted to share my thoughts, and most importantly – i wanted to impact someone – someone who might have the same thoughts and feelings about a certain situation and might feel alone, much how I felt and sometimes continue to feel.
So when I started to blog a year ago, although I didn’t realize it at the time, looking back at it now, I found myself not connecting with my emotions and writing just for the sake of posting something. Although what I wrote was very real – there wasn’t any emotion behind it – I wasn’t 100% behind it. So naturally, I lost interest and it became a chore – a chore I didn’t want to do. So I stopped. I let it all go, with no intentions of coming back.
Time passed and in the last 6 months – writing has taken over my mind. I find myself thinking about topics to discuss and how I would state certain things and picturing exactly what and how I would talk about things. The thought of writing overcame me to the point that I couldn’t focus on anything else. And now that I sit here typing, I know that THIS is my time. The time is now!
The stars have aligned and I’m emotionally ready to share some of my stories. Maybe not all – not at this time. But I’ll know when I’m ready and in the meantime I’ll go through this journey with you all. Together we will fine ourselves and we will find our voice and our purpose – because this is the time!